speakin' my mind.

2007-02-13T01:40:00.000-08:00

managed to find some time to blog.

im so overkilled. math 17/40, and waiting for a disastrous chinese results.

sometimes, i think.. they say we're lucky to have all our limbs and a proper body.. but is it really true? last time in tribes, people lived to live. literally, because they could die from wild animals any day. in civilization last time, people shared what little they had to the tribe, and then everyone enjoys the reaps of the harvest. but society now, is one that is competitive, and one that gives us stress. people lived everyday like there would be no tomorrow, now people plan on how they are gonna live to retirement.

school life is tough. but what is school life without fun? school in the past was just to get resonable grades and out of olevels. but nowadays, they tell you. aim higher. soar into the sky. make singapore on the world map. but what the heck, the higher you go, the higher stages the4re are. theres no such thing as an end to life. they say education is to allow you to live a better life next time. you get better education, better jobs, but also more demanding jobs. in the world today, theres no such thing as slacking. just slog to work and carry out your task, go home, relax and sleep. thats a cosmopolitian lifestyle.

look at the plans the government wants to implement. implement wonder linkways for leisure purposes etc. but is that really feasible? are those facilities gonna be used? no. people have no time for it. another good example. 5 day work week. dont we still see ourselves going back to schools on weekends, or working doubly hard because our ccas have been moved to a weekday instead of on saturdays?

ah im just ranting. but what i want to know. is. what is the meaning of life, when you know you are going to die. what life is actually. is it fortunate for us to be able, or just unfortunate that we came into this world in the first place?

2007-02-03T06:02:00.000-08:00

you listen up. i WILL get on with my life. shall forget your existant.
as time change, people change, you change as well. i don't know you anymore. i don't wish to care anymore either.

your just my illusion..
& all our memories will fade away. someday.

2007-02-02T06:43:00.001-08:00

well just a warning. =x

theres a sicko/despo by the name of tan ding jie in my school .some of you might alr know him since he's rather famous, in nanyang that is. for being a despo.

just warning fellow ppl out there. cos something.. HORRENDOUS happeneded today. we were going to the mcdonalds at king alberts park. then.. when we got off the bus.. he saw this rv girl there. (yes, rv.) he just walk there and ask the girl, "erm ,may i know around where to you stay?".

so stunned T_T. he really so thick skinned ask ppl where they live.. (actually, i think it should be he has no skin. cos the skin = him). and imagine a total stranger walking up to you and ask you for that.

sadly, i didnt find out if the girl did reply him or not. but its really quite sick lah. (in my opinion..) and he looks a bit like an elf, quite tall.. not very tanned..

i have decided to disassociate myself with such people... lols.

2007-01-29T02:43:00.000-08:00

wah all my tests are piling up just before cny. consecutive, 1 after another. die liao, this time term results so so screwed..

anyway.. happy chinese new year to all! hope that the year would change (again) for you, after the previous new year. for the better of course! =D

2007-01-06T21:55:00.000-08:00

I'm damn pissed off with my sis la. She has this damn bad attitude which i find it damn ANNOYING. She expects people to do EVERTHING she says. If we don't she will get into a fit. What she always does, she doesn't want others to do it. Just cause the socket is near the bed doesn't mean that its HERS can! I just used it and left my charger inside and she starts to "OIII WHERE'S MY CHARGER?!?!". She did it on purpose la. Obviously she can find it herself since it's obviously under her bed. Why? Does she think i plugged it out and stick it on the ceiling?! Or issit her charger flew away and threw itself down the window?! I think it gives her great pleasure to see me running there and helping her find her charger, then push out her bed and help her plug it in again. Why can't she do such an easy task herself? And she sat on her bed and watched me happily while expecting me to push her bed out. Can't she just move away or how am i going to do that? Then when everything was done she was like "push my bed back!!!". Its only a small gap doesn't matter right! I got damn pissed off and walked away. I could hear her shouting "OIIII. Next time don't touch my bed la!" ha!ha!ha! who wants to touch HER bed?! I had no choice at all! She always take out my battery charger and plug hers in. When did i ever shout at her to come here and help me plug it back again when i obviously can see mine on the floor?! Anyway its NOT her socket AND I shall continue to use it WHENEVER I LIKE.

2007-01-02T04:51:00.000-08:00

okie. so now i realised i was the dead one.
haha! anyway school's reopening tomorrow. ):
time really flies.
should've made the holidays one year. XD
the thing i'm most worried about is my 10-hours sleep a day.
ZzZzZzZz...
boohoo.... split le... i will miss 2complicated so muchhh!
and there's still one stupid busy year ahead.
i must smileee =D

2006-12-31T23:56:00.000-08:00

yay! its a NEW YEAR!

yesterday i was.. out with a bunch of my bro's friends. at marina bay. very packed.. we wanted to go billy bombers but the queue is rather.. horrific. we settled for cafe cartel.. then we went to eat. i didnt really know what to buy.. so i went to buy that top 100 signature dishes 2005's st. louis pork ribs. i think its too filling liao. i bought a drink also. called pina colada (smth like that). according to the menu.. its banana+pineapple+lime. tastes good. but didnt finish the pork ribs lor. after that.. when paying.. we realise the gst very difficult to split. lol. so some of us pay more some of us pay less lor. the bill was $240.05 for 12 people.. (i think)

after we paid the bill.. not bad! one of my bro's friend's sister got married at marina mandarin hotel a day before. then she got a suite.. ON THE 15TH FLOOR. woots! dam good view of the fireworks.. then we laze around and watch the tv until near 12. one of my bro's friend go film the entire fireworks display.. he's from astro club.. and his hands are like.. super steady lor. hold there 6 minutes wor. pro. then after that we chat abit.. then we left. AT 12.50am. big mistake.

we reached marina square inside.. then realised very packed. when we reach citylink mall, we realised.. THEY SEAL OFF THE PLACE!! NOO!! then we quickly chiong past beach road there.. then realise that they seal off the citylink mall.. by that time was around 1.15am.. we later chiong, then realise got a huge crowd.. luckily we managed to squeeze thru then take the LAST mrt train from the city area home. around 1.30am. jialat. when we first went in.. everyone mad rush lah. we managed to grab 2 seats. from where we were standing, suddenly a young girl vomit.. then everyone move aside.. then theres this indian guy leaning against the glass standing opp. the vomit.. then suddenly he just like.. collapsed, then his leg touch the vomit. quite er. thenn suddenly, HE VOMIT ALSO. T_T guess its due to mad rush or beer or something lor. one of my bro's friend dropped off at tiong bahru.. her boyfriend follow her along. although he lives in potong pasir. good luck for him to walk home, last train over liao. lol.

when we reach jurong east.. i and my bro go to catch the bus home.. then we quite thirsty, so we went to buy a drink at the store.. when walking there we saw this weird bus called EW24.. we dunno what that was, but quite packed, so we heck and go buy drink lor. after we buy drink liao we walked there, see the sign board then realised EW24 stands for jurong east and we need to take EW24 to go home. sadly, the bus we saw.. was the last one. oops. okay nvm, we walk home. around 50 minutes. lol. slowly sauntering.. haha

then finally reach home.. but still not very tired actually lol. but nothing interesting on tv mah. so i go sleep lor.. lol.

wah i can't believe i managed to crap so much. o_o

2006-11-30T07:05:00.001-08:00

recently went on holiday.. came back then suddenly realised that zhangyuchi found this blog. congrats to her..

my holiday was going to perth.. i think australia is kinda ridiculous.. firstly.. my air ticket was $400 .. but the airport tax.. is like 2/3 of that amount.. my parents + me go, pay $1200.. the airport tax is $800! and then.. even snicker bars.. also must declare that you have them.. how ridiculous. just because they wanna protect their agriculture doesnt really mean these kinda things such as snicker bars also must declare..

i think perth's lifestyle is quite relaxed.. all of them rush home at like 5.00++pm.. (except for those restaurants, bars..) even their clothes shop close around that time.. so at night is really kinda boring.. just laze around in the hotel/apartment (we rented an apartment when we went to fremantle) and read newspaper/watch tv..

there they have something like free bus services to get around the central business district.. they come quite often.. but sometimes quite irregular also.. there was once.. we missed a bus.. we thought it would come in 5 minutes time.. in the end we waited for almost 30 minutes. lol. the bus was superpacked.. but their bus is the new kind.. and also quite spacious.. disabled friendly i guess, got ramps and two spaces that can be created by lifting the chair so wheelchair can fit in.. the bus even got hydraulics, so i can tilt to one side.

there was once walking along the street.. some old man (maybe drunk) suddenly walk towards me and attempt to touch me. luckily i quickly run into the clothes shop lols. that place was quite secluded.. only maybe 2 other ppl nearby. scary..

anyway im too concentrated on STOMP to blog. (thats why you realise my typing is sometimes incoherent.) lol.

2006-11-16T06:09:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was like so funny. And irritating. There was this customer.. an old lady. Then there was another customer queueing behind her.. i think she acidentally step on the old lady or what. So the old lady turned back and stared at her. And she was like "did i step on you? oh... sorry". The old lady was like "never mind, your shoe very sharp. it's not pain, but very itchy." Then she turned back a few times and repeated the same thing.. "not pain, but very itchy". Make the woman damn embarrassingla. Next she started pouring out all her coins... like 7+ bucks or so and she counted damn slow while the queue behind was getting longer and longer. -.- So then she waited for her burger... quite slow la, but she don't need to irritate people right. She stood at the counter there and keep asking me if her burgers were ready. Then when i told her to wait she went to disturb every cashier and asked the same thing. And i was serving a customer who wanted bbq sauce so she came to interrupt and said "can give me bbq sauce also? aiya, nevermind, just give me all the sauce that you have" I was on the verge of exploding so i didn't care her and just gave her bbq sauce la. 2 burgers only need so much sauce for what. 5 types leh. Siao one. She even go kajiao the controller then she started asking me why so slow so i told her one burger ready the other not. So it went like this.
"Why so slow one?"
"Because one burger is ready and one is not"
"Why issit one burger ready the other not? Then like that issit this one ready then the other cold already?"
"Er... no, it won't turn cold"
"So if one burger ready then by the time the other ready this one turn cold already ma... i want hot one hor"
"Ya..ya..."
"So you mean this burger ready this burger not that means this one not ready this one ready la so this one ready lo only left this one la blablabla..." then she point and point. and what she wanted to ask was that one burger was ready and one was not. only phrased in different words but man she can speak very fast.
So meanwhile she asked for some hot water. Finally jeff gave her her burgers then she say all the sauce inside hor? Jeff was like what sauce you want? "All the sauce... all the sauce you have" so jeff turned back... and his face expression was so weird la. So she got all the sauce... and walked away... i was so relieved... finally can vent my anger. Then she turned back and asked for dunno what la. Still turn back 2 times can. She finally go then yushan who saw the whole thing started laughing and laughing. Very irritating la... if i know i don't serve her liao.

2006-11-05T08:02:00.000-08:00

Worst situation i ever faced during work. The drink was poured over the customer. It was so embarrassing! Though i didn't do it but i was partly responsible for the toppling of the cup. Grrr... and he was like so pissed off with me. Nothing happened initially.. until his son actually carried the plastic bag containing 4 cups of coke and he placed it back and then.. one cup toppled over and the drinks spilled into his paper bag, containing his shopping items. As soon as he got his stuffs he stalked off without taking his change and i had to chase after him la. But still the customers today were damn gao xiao. There was actually this guy who came along and then blablabla... ordered his food. Same procedure.. i asked him chilli or ketchup for you? and he was like huh? so i repeated my words... and he said what is that? I was very stunned lo... chilli and ketchup how can anyone not know right? Then his girlfriend was like laughing and hitting him playfully. Though it was very funny but i was trying not to laugh. I told myself i had to bear until he walked off. Then while i was repeating his order halfway i finally cannot tahan i started laughing. Then his girlfriend started laughing too. So later i realised i couldn't continue to repeat his order 'cause whenever i open my mouth i will start laughing. And then there was this woman who said can you give me two cups of ice because the soup is too hot. I nearly started laughing la. What was she planning to do? Pour those ice into the soup issit? And lastly i think jeff is siao. He cracks alot of lame jokes recently and then he will start laughing and laughing by himself.
For example.
1. He put a pineapple into a mooncake bag and ask people if they want to eat mooncake.
2. He keep saying auntie shan and auntie chan.
3. He hid one of yushan's shoe and my shoebag then when we asked about it he pretended that he don't know anything. Then later when we searched for it he put them back in the original place. So he thought we are so stupid to wonder why one moment it was missing and the next it was there like nobody touched it. But too bad he placed the shoe in the wrong way. Nobody will possibly cross their legs before they take off their shoes.
And worst of all he start to laugh and laugh and laugh like a madman after that. Still, i must say he's very fun and funny. (:

2006-10-15T05:21:00.000-07:00

I went to the jurong regional library today to borrow some books. After exams alr anyway.. so i was bored =p. after walking around then i noticed this not-bad looking girl at one of the less-frequented shelves (cos it was on cooking or something). [ps, im not sick-in-the-head.] anyway i was curious why she would be looking for cooking books, so i pretended to go there and look at some book on cancer. then i noticed she was frantically looking through the bottom shelf.. and it was something on stress. i realised she was looking for something specific (cos she looked through the content page and flipped to that page she wanted to see). thiswas then i noticed one of the books was something to do with suicide. maybe she was very stressed and wanted to commit suicide? im not very sure. so afterwards she went off to another shelf.. and i tailed her (hope it wasn't obvious). then i noticed she went on to psychology? o_o. so i went off to the shelf nearby.. on ruinning linux? -_-. anyway she was reading the same genre.

i thought it was quite interesting cos ive never seen a person under stress thinking clearly that she is under enormous stress? and shes like committing suicide. (not tt im cursing..( but if anyone commits suicide, might be her. i think people she learn to let go.. dont you think so? stress is cos we give ourselves stress. if we let everything have its on course, i guess stress, is easily defeatable.. and stress just makes us stronger everyday we pass it, but overwhelming stress just kills us..

2006-10-04T03:59:00.000-07:00

funny and very touchin'. go watch it! (:

2006-10-01T20:09:00.000-07:00

just now when i was taking the 99 bus home.. there was this man who bought a mop and was holding it vertically. i thought it was the grab-pole so i hold it. then i realised. it was a mop. o_O

2006-09-10T06:31:00.000-07:00

oh. i just realised you posted. sorry for not attending the class gathering but i wasn't allowed to go out during this hols. anyway, just let it go since kwangzhen has already left... i know alot of people are saddened by the news. i couldn't believe it at first too... can't understand why life's so unfair to him. he said that there were still many things he wanted to do... and he was so young then... but i will forever remember him as a very corageous person... not everyone can face the illness as cheerfully as he did...

2006-09-07T00:20:00.000-07:00

kwang zhen was a very nice guy. he just recovered from leukemia. god isn't fair to him. he fought through 20% chance of survival from the cancer. and he has to die like that. why do good people die like that? why do good people die young? he doesnt deserve that. im especially saddened by the very fact that i had met him that very day, 31 aug. in primary school. jianqin was still commenting that he was looking so different than before, and we took turns playing with his botak hair. i didnt think much about it, except the fact that his cheeks were bigger. how would i know. just that night, he would start slipping away from our hands.

he had so much to live for, he seemed just on the right track to continue in life. i had visited him in hospital when he was receiving treatment and also at his house when he was recovering. i remember me sharing money with bufan and matthew to get a cd for him to listen to at home. he was very cheerful. he didnt seem like the type who would be stressed out easily by much. his antic were memorable. seriously. why is god so unfair?

anyway yesterday was class gathering (pocheng didnt go as usual.) mood was rather solemn obviously, after hearing about the news of kwangzhen's passing. oi think the hardest hit among us was bufan. their relationship was quite close i guess. bu fan was really moody. he talked to us only when he really did, and he suddenly backed out from a basketball game. but i wonder, if anyone was his friend, who wouldn't be hard-hit? including timothy. he was extremely pissed with people who didnt go to the gathering although he seldom let off steam.

anyway i shan't rant on. i just wish that kwangzhen would rest in peace, and he would live forever in our hearts. whatever comes in life, we just have to learn to grapple with it. farewell, dearest friend, kwang zhen.

2006-09-06T02:30:00.000-07:00

life is so unfair... he just recovered from leukemia... and then 2 months later he got involved in a car accident... still remember some of the funny things he did during p5... he seemed such a cheerful person...

rest in peace kwang zhen...

2006-08-24T03:31:00.000-07:00

what does she want? she's better than me in everything, in terms of academic she's better, she has everything she want. i am lousier than her what! what else does she want to compare? she has everything and i don't. i am always the unlucky one. what more does she want?! so what if she's better than me in everything? she said it was normal for her to be better than me so why compare with me?! i don't want to face her every single day. the moment i see her i feel really furious. i feel lousier than ever. so much lousier.
Is that what friends are for? to backstab you and talk bad behind your back when you trust them so much. I hate it. i don't wish to see her.

2006-08-19T05:22:00.000-07:00

yayyes. i havent blog in LONGLONG time.

yesterday went for moutain biking course instead of training. woots. well not bad lah. esp going down slope lolol. (obviously). can feel the wind blowing past.. and also hear like sounds nearby wooshing past. climing up is tiring though! and worse still my mountain bike the gear sot one. cannot put gear 7 wtfh. ut gear 7.. then it will keep switching back and forth between 7 and 6.. then will jam lol.

starting we just ride only along the gravel road. just practising climbing and going down tts all. then later on was real mountain biking. we went thru (1 by 1) along the dirt path. wa kao starting instantly is go down hill. then got rocks, branches and stuff. very, very dangerous. luckily i didnt fall =D then going up hill tt time.. everyone get off their bike and push. its like damned steep can. then afterthat we stopped at this open area.. got cliffs one. haha. then rest.. practise some s-bending (go round cones) and then do tap breaking and progressive breaking. later on we ride.. out to open road. damn shuang! like 300m of down slope. I PUT AT GEAR 1!! dangerous though=x. coz if skid v diff to break.. and then road nearby, got cars. lol. anyway no one fall lah. its a straight stretch of road anyway. hahaha

after that went back. wow 6+ alr. anyway we collect our stuff and went home. lol. so thats all XD

2006-08-13T08:30:00.000-07:00

I love onigiri!

2006-08-12T06:58:00.000-07:00

"Will you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe."

2006-08-08T04:05:00.000-07:00

never ever leave your belongings lying around in je library.

i was still using my handphone and the next moment it went missing. goddamn that person who stole it. weird. i don't think anyone went near me... grrrrrr!

2006-07-21T19:33:00.000-07:00

feeling very bored right now. shall describe yesterday's training i guess.

yesterday was passing out parade! WOOTS. i love that. sadsitic ncos are gonna disappear... =D day started out rather boring. change into uniform, take pics, blahblahblah. then after that we practised the parade. not that tough i guess.. just follow some commands afterall. anyway once our teachers in charge came.. then it was fun. we were like. yay. our long awaited day has come. (our platoon commander is rather sadistical afterall right.) then after we march in and blahblahblah stuff... then finally its time for them to say our new platoon commander and other duties (such as core sergeant major and training head). when they told us our new platoon commander, we all clapped while we were in senang diri. lucky never get pumped! hehehe.

after that got celebration as usual. wonder how much they gonna ask us to pay this time. for the whole corps, they ordered like 16 regular pizzas from canadian pizza 2 for 1, ONLY A PATHETIC 8 bottles of 1.5 litres drink. (i didn't even get to drink a single drop), 2 curry-chicken-wrapped-in-a-bun thingeh, some oreos and chips. surely costs a bomb.. anyway, the most intresting thing must be. WE WERE DISMISSED ON TIME FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A WHOLE YEAR! AMAZING. we were dismissed at 6.28pm actually. even early by 2 minutes. anyway, lemme hope that this new platoon commander is not that bad, whichhe should because when he took us for training he didn't pump us unneccessrily or scold us, even when the ncos force him to. a rather just person i would say...

2006-07-11T05:08:00.001-07:00

Met two idiotic people on the bus. one from hwa chong and one from ite. because it was after cca at that time, the bus was packed with rvians, so we were standing near the door, with that two idiotic people behind us. they almost can't board the bus 'cause i think the people at the back refused to move. and then they started to say "rvians move leh, don't move i write letter complain about you". but she said it so softly that obviously no one noticed her, until the bus driver told them to move. and when they finally managed to board the bus, they started saying that if they shouted rvians sucks, the rest of the people in the bus would agree with them. then they proceeded on to say that rvians are very snobbish like no one's business, especially when we were standing just in front of them.

why can't they just shut their mouths up until they alight from the bus. and then they can say what they want. true, it's wrong if those people at the back didn't want to move but by criticizing others, it makes them look very bad as well. and what was more, they were wearing their school uniform. very disgraceful can? where are their basic courtesy? if singaporeans all behave this way, what can they do? if they want to criticize they should scold the whole singapore then. i suggest they knock on every door from boon lay to pasir ris and tell the people to please move to the back of the bus. how i felt like kicking them down the bus. from the way they talk, they seemed really childish. if they want to write a letter to complain then do so la, like anyone will care about them. or rather, can care about them. what can they do? ask someone to board every single bus and tell them to move before he/she alights? hahaha! wad rubbish! -.-

anyway, why would someone care about something like this if he/she allows certain people to cut queues? like what rights? why do they have the privilege to do so? huh? like this it's the same as telling me they are human and we are not. all i know is that cutting a queue is wrong. that's all i know. fine? for example, if i were a multi-billionaire, the richest person on earth, and unfortunately the most unreasonable person as well, and i happen to like the roads and trains and buses alot, so i buy them all up and say that nobody is allowed to use them except for me. so what do i say to the people? you all go walk to your destinations la, it's not my problem, not my business, you settle your problems yourself! why? i am rich, i have money, i have power and control over everything wad, so i abuse it, who are you to care?

ya. so if it was like this. if la. also cannot do everything. you suffer in silence? like this very happy issit?

2006-07-11T05:08:00.000-07:00

last saturday was hci open house. was there by 7.00am to be tourguide.

ms kala sucks. SHE PUT BURBERY WEEKEND PERFUME ON US WTF!?!?! im lucky i managed to dodge her. (she put 4 times, 2 times on elbows, two times on wrists). i only put on one arm, not two arms. =D it seriously stinks anyway..

i was the first batch to be sent out, leading students around the school compound. dammit, its seriously easy. luckily i did read my notes ^^" otherwise i would have died. finished the tour after 1hr after going to many other extra places. and also talking ghost stories. woots. ghost stories --> best way to pass the time.

later on finished. then went to usher PARENTS for the tour. then slack. went to eat lunch. then came back just in time to find out we could slack. so we proceeded to kiddies corner! LOL. kiddies corner is a place where parents can put their kids at to learn balloon sculpturing, beading and face painting WHILE WATCHING CARTOONS. all i wanted was to watch the cartoons. but got chased out wtf.

later i followed one of my friends on the parents tour. AND SAID GHOST STORIES AGAIN. hahahaha. make the parents laugh like mad.. =D

later on dismissed, then went home. a good whole 9 hrs of CIP.

okay now im so dying. yesterday rushed like crazy for my projects day.. then today gotta prepare for maths test and a hell lotta homework too. dammit. our teachers seem to be in a collaboration to set a date in which they would give a lot of homework. even our chinese teacher give, for the first time, and it CLASH with all our other subjects!?!?! what the hell.

anyway, all i can say is that im still busy doing homework. although i have to admit that i have lesser hw than RV generally.

but since i have so much to do, i shall stop blogging. in the time being. lol.

2006-07-07T08:07:00.000-07:00

nice movie... sweet and funny. (:

are all singaporeans that rude? don't they ever know how to move or say thankyou? what about opening the door for others? or waiting for everyone to step out of the train before they make their way in?

today i was taking bus 963, very packed because it was practically filled with rvians. if i was not wrong, the bus arrived at clementi and about half of the people who were standing got off. but why are the people in front still standing there like they have super glue sticked to their feets? can't they move to the back and allow people to enter? there was like one whole lot of space at the back. nearly the space of one bus. and then the people at the front were so squeezed. such a funny scene. funny as in weird 'cause you can see people at the front with so damn little space and the back of the bus. empty.

by the way, is thankyou such a difficult thing to say? normally when you are outside and if someone was directly in front or behind you, you would somehow keep the door from closing to allow the person to enter right? not automatic doors i mean. but why when you do that people would just stare at you like you owe them a debt or something? don't they know what is manners? MANNERS????!!!!

and the worst thing is the mrt train. that time there was this old lady who boarded the train and nobody bothered to stand up and offer her their seat. either they saw and turned away like nobody's business OR they pretended to sleep. stand awhile only what. will die issit? luckily there was this very nice malay student who offered her his seat. but really, it's impossible to scold those inconsiderate people right?

imagine this... what if i said this?

"oi! you this idiot! better get lost and give your seat to this old lady huh!"

wonder how their reaction would be, most probably the reaction of a typical singaporean.

the thing i get most irritated about is that even before passengers can alight, the people start to push their way in through the sides. how to alight you tell me? then when the train arrive at je station, everyone will chiong out and push one another, in the attempt of catching the middle track train but excuse me, i don't think that train ever closes its door so quickly right? gan zhe qu tou tai issit? i help them la! they will even scold you or start 'tsk-ing' if you happen to obstruct their way and spoil their chances of being the championship. for entering the train of course. so i'm here to advise everyone on moving out of the train and stand at one CORNER before everyone alight. then you can go back into the train, even though if you are taking the train back to boon lay, 'cause if you don't... okay la, you will also get pushed out of the train anyway, but at least you don't suffer all the pushing and shoving and scolding right?

http://media.libsyn.com/media/mb/tmbs-060703-singapore_flunks_courtesy.mp3

2006-07-01T08:50:00.000-07:00

i know. haven't blogged in a long long time. anyway, continuing. second day, woke up for hike. brought 2 bottles (1.5l) as instructed.. started walking from hci to bishan via marymount road, then go to yishuin. however my leg pain so i went back to school at yio chu kang (to slack?). anyway it really hurts coz i forgot to bring my flat foot insole to camp xP.

i slacked until the others reached yishun and came back to school.. later on had lunch. same usual stuff, except there were sausages this time. fun. later on had really lame stuff including PT, water parade and changing parade. changing parade was lame la. basically it was like. ncos set a number of items you must wear such as "white shoes, white socks", and then you have to figure out what other thing you must change such that the whole squad, everyone wears differently. that includes wearing your t-shirt upside down, for example. oh yahn and also have bunk checks/adding of credits..

hmm.. after that was dinner. not as nice as yesterday's, but still better than lunch. sadly, that day no extras unlike yesterday. but the drink was nicer i guess. anyway soon after was the confidence trail. got to have some rest before it. at around 12+ went to street soccer court to assemble. was the 5th person to go onto the trail. generally okay, but i think it was shorter than last years, but this years one seems more scary.. and muddier too. my shoes were like in a completely wonderful condition after the confidence trail. (oh shit. didnt explain what was confidence trail. basically just wear a rubber glove and follow the rope, with a torch in your hand through the school in jc and highschool sect.)

after that i took out some wonderful candles, and started cooking pork cubes in the bunk. HAHAHA. then later on we cooked biscuits and bread too. kinda like a supper i guess. they even read newpaper (borrowed from sirs). lol.

okay the next day is like even more wonderful.. started off with bfast of biscuits, sausages, pork cubes and maggi mee (dry) and milo powder. we had too much extras so we just cleared it.. lol.
later on was bunk check again. our kind csm (highest rank in corp after teachers and seniors in j1++) come in and do bunk check.. then he explain to us whats wrong. very very reasonbale. then my sadistic platoon commander come in and dcsm (2nd in rank, who is also rather sadistic) flings clothing around like. wow.

anyway later there was triage. WOOTS. i and my friend chin teck was deployed to near where chinese orch. was practising. we quickly sneaked away to go buy canned drinks. ahh. tasty. yum =P and the good thing about triage: it was from 2.30pm to 6.30pm! YES. then when no one came to us, we were instructed to go canteen (thats what we did). another bout of dinner. but who cares! last day.

later on there was night drill and ghost story telling by my sadistic nco along the way. wtf. 2 hr night drill.. then not long after that was solo night. at clock tower WTFH. i did on second floor. the prowlers said at the opposite end before they went there the windows were already open. freaky. the guy there felt sick and reported not feeling well..but not long later (think it was gonna rain or something..) and we reported back to our bunks. and that was the end of day 3! woots. last day..

last day. pack bunk, eat breakfast, bla bla.. okay thats the end i guess. lol..

2006-06-28T04:57:00.000-07:00

why is my life that miserable?

2006-06-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

well im gonna post about the camp. basically, the camp was just like normal. maybe a bit tougher than usual i guess. some interesting stuff happened though. here it goes..

first day. arrive in school, empty our luggage on the floor in one minute (that includes taking out everything (YES EVERYTHING) from our bag.) okay, typical. something different though. TISSUE PAPER INCLUDED WTF. nevermind. typical of my sadistic ncos i guess. anyway, pack back in one minute. then when we were leaving, i just realised my nco borrowed my watch and didn't return back to me. i asked him and you know what he said? "OOPS. i think i lost in your squadmates' luggage. ask them to help you find." WOW. wonderful responsibility.okay nvm.

into the bunk (classroom.) bunk check in 15 minutes. 8 items. namely..

pe t-shirt
khaki shorts
white shirt
pe shorts
water bottle (crap.)
mess tin
torchlight
first aid manual.

okay, the toughest is the water bottle, like duh. when bunk check came, there was approx. 42 items on the bunk floor. mainly water bottles.. another 10 minutes. okay did much better. after that had a few drills (fire/police drill). then had foot drill. then lunch. cool. had maggi mee and sardines/baked beans/pork cubes. then went back to bunk to find out our bunk kanna messed, (later learnt it was called chao3 fan4). then bunk check in 5 minutes. wonderful. obviously we died. then they added a system called game credits. now we officially had 4k game credits. from where? i dont know. anyway this is the conversion system.

1 credit = 1 pump
1 pump = 3 situp
1 one hand pump = 5 credits
1 commando = 3 credits
1 knuckle = 2 credits

and others.. anyway 4k credits. what the heck. later got more bunk checks/pt.. dinner was not bad. catered from canteen. HAHA THE NCOS GOT SCOLDED BY THE CANTEEN AUNTIE. later on.. at night. WARGAMES!. fun. comp team members+ncos+1 sir VS sec 3+sec2+sec 1+1 sir+1nco (my platoon commander). anyway we won! ganking strategy > all. i killed one person! woots. oh shit just realised forgot to explain how to play. ok its like this. two teams 1 flag each. something like CTF la. then.. you have to tie a white shirt around your RIGHT arm. to kill another person, pull his white shirt off.. win: capture their flag. we won! supposed to clear 500 credits if we did. wonderful reason given for not minusing any: 5 people lost. (WE HAVE 5 COMP TEAM MEMBERS.) cool. my platoon commander, always like that. later we packed for hike. shall talk about that in my next blog post.. then went to sleep. had fire drill in the morning. cool. got more credits coz one person didn't wake up, and we didn't wake him up either. (didn't notice at all..)

OK. this is how much i shall say (for now). continue next time.

2006-06-15T08:36:00.000-07:00

oh yaa. so tired now. went to watch garfield 2 in the afternoon with liling. we felt rather old. 'cause the cinema was practically like. filled with kids. there were adults too, yeah. but that's because most of them were there to accompany their kids. XD nevertheless, it was pretty entertaining. and from the start we were planning to watch something funny. garfield is such a cute kitty. stupid fat ball of fur! HAHAHA! oh my... why did i say that? i'm siao. ahem. nevermind. but the good thing is. our attempt to smuggle drinks in didn't fail. thanks to my bag. hahaha. i got seat 13. XD what an unlucky seat. why is it unlucky you ask? 'cause the little girl beside me kept kicking me. oh yeahh. and she laughs really loud. so cute! ha.ha.ha.
liling went off after we had our lunch. it was like 2 hours before the bbq. and so i got someone to accompany me to walk around westmall. such an aimless walk. tsktsk. i was somehow attracted to the advertisement for Just My Luck at bukit batok mrt station. XD but at 5+ for some reasons i didn't go for the bbq. sighhh.
and right now my sis is humming a tune which sounds like some native singing to me. how i feel like kicking her to one of the jungles in africa. 'cause that's the perfect place where she can sing it. happily. with the native people to appreciate her singing. i know nothing about appreciating her singing. it's seriously awful. thankyouverymuch. good day to everyone!

o_O uh... why did i say that?

and one last thing. i noticed plenty of people clad in green tees today. why huh?

stupid ed. why weren't you at home. harr?! call you then nobody pick up. XD

2006-06-13T02:47:00.000-07:00

watched bubble boy yesterday on tv. quite an interesting movie actually. (:

anyway. what is charity actually? giving help to the needy yeah? but i'm wondering if charity organizations are really trying to help the needy or keep themselves going. somehow at least half of the money donated goes to the charity organization itself. so that means if someone donated 2 bucks only 1 buck or less really go to the needy? then this is not call charity anymore. people donate because they want to help the needy, not the charity organization. who cares about the charity organization? i understand that charity organizations need part of the money to survive. but i just don't think that doing this is right. okay. maybe taking abit of it is not considered too unreasonable. but half of it is certainly too much.
honestly i really think some charity organizations have far too much money. they organize charity shows, urging people to call and donate, with all the actors and actresses performing dangerous stunts blah blah blah. they are just using the actors and actresses to help them advertise. why bother to do such things? if people really want to donate they will. and then they take PART of the money to buy grand prizes like cars and condos. imagine if they don't buy those prizes, how many people can they help? i tell you they don't have to fund the patients partially. they can give them free treatment. and then how many times do they organise these charity shows per year? and how much do they collect? enough to last the patients for like. plenty of years. since one charity show can already last their patients for years. and i mean years. why bother to hold them so many times? they can save on buying the cars and condos even. if people call only because they want the prizes. then that means in the first place they aren't even keen on donating. they don't even want to help. if they don't want to help, why tempt them with all these prizes? so unneccessary right? why want such money? it's like forcing them to donate anyway.

2006-06-07T05:47:00.000-07:00

oh my... the person from singapore idol who sang are you happy now. she. insulted michelle branch's song. arghhhh!

i support paul twohill! (:

2006-06-01T21:25:00.000-07:00

Featuring the Singapore Fei Chang Super Campus Idol Star.
Hosts Daniel Gong and Gurpreet Singh.
http://media.libsyn.com/media/mb/tmbs-060523-where_are_they_idoling_now.mp3

To the tune of the Black Eyed Peas' My Hump.
Titled My Car.
http://www.kennysia.com/audio/mrbrownshow%20-%20My%20Car%20(kennysia.com%20Remix).mp3

-the above are by mr brown.com & miyagi.sg

2006-05-31T08:54:00.000-07:00

i'm in a very very very bad mood now. why remind me of the past just by a normal conversation? why bother to make amends and change yourself into someone whom you are not? why try to make everything similar to the past? just by doing the same things? i tell you it's not the same. no matter what you do nothing will be the same. even if you sacrifice your life or whatever nothing will be the same. nothing will change like what it used to be. we have practically nothing to talk about. i don't feel comfortable telling you anything. i don't like telling you my worries. i feel that i am talking to the wall everyday, talking about the same stuff and everything, repeating myself but i can do nothing about it because i don't want to tell you about my thoughts. i feel very neglected. you are no longer the one who lights my way. i just want to forget everything in the past. what do i treat you as? seriously i have no idea. i can't answer anything. so i say no need for anything, just don't bother. it's not what you really want to do, so why bother? you are only doing this to make me happier? but sorry this will only make me more pissed off. and does that mean that if i don't mention the matter you will never realise anything wrong and treat everything as usual?

and to the stupid hacker. what are you trying to do by hacking my account. do you feel great pleasure by doing that? i don't think i offended you but if you think i did can you please tell me straight in the face? ni na li bu shuang? huh? you are hacking my account just to entertain yourself. can you stop being so childish and stop sprouting rubbish to any of my contacts. if you are feeling real bored in any way you can go to hell or whatever. stop disturbing me. i know who you are can? goddamn you.

2006-05-28T07:36:00.000-07:00

going on holiday tmr night. lol. will be gone for like. from tmr until next sunday. hahaha. but no where far la. malaysia only. not so rich....

im sure i'll miss a lotta people, chatting on msn. so sad i don't have a laptop (not quite rich to buy one), or i can use msn on the go XD in can seriously consider myself as an msn addict. but not that bad. i usually go play rite. (and dao people unknowingly). so there.

anyway, so that also means i won't blog for quite sometime. thats rather sad. but nothing to fret. my posts aren't as important as pocheng's one, coz i didn't publicise my blog to MY friends in hci. hah.

tomorrow receiving back my science paper in school. quite sure im dead. biology is tough. but interesting when a teacher buts a 2 hour uncensored, MOE-approved movie as a lure/bait. lol.

2006-05-28T06:21:00.000-07:00

today was doing cip at bugis with yanyi. but it was raining non-stop and so there weren't much people to ask to donate. and we were not supposed to ask in the shopping centres and mrt stations. very very troublesome la. and in the end we got very bored at 1pm so we quit doing. couldn't find st. joseph church though, thought it might be a good place to ask for donations and get rid of all the teddy bears. and most of the people who donated were the elderly. realised that teenagers don't donate.

then took a train down to dhoby ghaut 'cause yanyi wanted to buy a cap? o_O then we ended up in the arcade for don't know what reason. just to try out the ddr there i suppose. after that we proceeded on to je arcade. 6 rounds of ddr in total. waste money waste money. tsktsk. i hate je arcade 'cause it always make me feel very. very. very. very. tempted.

2006-05-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

finally. the june holidays start now. (: can have a good rest. how many days have i not slept properly?

sigh... today's promo test was a disaster. i am prepared to fail. practical just sucks. so much for reading all my campcraft notes during assembly and getting it confiscated. in the end just some stupid questions came out. didn't even study for tents and compass. in the first place i didn't even learn anything about compass at all. what can i do? yes. stare at the compass like an idiot. o_O

fine. i didn't study much i admit. but it's not my fault. i have something on almost everyday. the manuka honey summary was really a killer. a killer as in i sacrificed so much of my sleep for that. just something less than 400 words and the research took like few hours. mad. and then lots and lots of things to be busy with. you tell me, how am i supposed to study?

unlucky day today. just met with lots of unlucky happenings which i shall not elaborate much. i am like so damn angry with the vehicles for splashing water at us. most probably they did it on purpose. the road wasn't even flooded. why did they have to drive so near to the pavement? huh huh huh? we didn't even offend them. the first van that drove past and splashed water at us was bad enough. but the second car was really terrible. i was like dripping wet from head to toe. tsktsk. and my jacket, my uniform bag, shoe bag, sketchbook everything were practically all wet. even my wallet that was inside my pocket. luckily my watch was waterproof. -.-

having cd practical tomorrow. going to sleep now and wake up at 3am to study.
anyway, looking forward to the chalet and west malaysia trip. (:

2006-05-25T19:21:00.000-07:00

download the persistently non-political podcast no. 6 by mr brown and mr miyagi here! (:

2006-05-24T23:22:00.000-07:00

im sick. lol. must be due to training i guess. vomitted after getting off the bus =X then had fever. now feeling much better! lol. but seriously yesterday's training was quite tough. every few minutes knock 20.. o_o. sadistic nco.

im really kinda bored now. nothing better to do. chatting to lianghu. he has SORE EYES, and he can't go to school. o_O. and he asked me to send his photoshop 7. lol. so now im sending lke 160MB worth of stuff to him. left around 20000kb. wow. amazing.

i think i don't have any more fever. but i think i still have a headache. argh. i shall go play dota, since im really bored...

2006-05-21T05:29:00.000-07:00

hahaha! Singapore Idol was a really entertaining show! that person who sang i want it that way by backstreet boys was really... hahaha! hilarious! was it christopher or who... he sang really slow and included some hand signs as well. i nearly spat out all the food i was eating at that moment. ha! and then did you guys hear the i-don't-know-who who sang part of the song repeatedly. so much stamina. LOL! the worst one was the guy who sang you raised me up. he was acting in such a gayish manner, even the way he speaks. my god! he spent like 5000 bucks from head to bottom and... um? i think his attire looks more like sherlock holmes instead, or rather, someone attending some kind of ancient ball. (:

2006-05-20T08:14:00.000-07:00

Here we are, the two of us together
Takin’ this crazy chance to be all alone
We both know that we should not be together
‘Cause if we’re found out, it could mess up
Both our happy homes

I hate to think about us all meeting up together
‘Cause as soon as I look at you it will show on my face, yeah
Then they’ll know that we’ve been loving each other
We can’t let ‘em know, no, no, no
We can’t leave a trace

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
We should not be together
But we can’t let go, no, no
‘Cause we love each other so

Ooh…ooh…

Sittin’ at home, I do nothin’ all day
But I think about you and hope that you’re okay
Hopin’ you’ll call before anyone gets home
I wait anxiously alone by the phone

How could something so wrong be so right
I wish we didn’t have to keep our love out of sight, yeah
Living two lives just ain’t easy at all
But we gotta hang on in there or fall

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
We should not be together
But we can’t let go, no, no
‘Cause we love each other so

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
Tryin’ so hard to hide the way we feel
‘Cause we both belong to someone else
But we can’t let go
‘Cause what we feel is, oh, so
So real, so real

You and me, are we friends
Is this cool or do we care
Can they tell what’s in our minds
Maybe they’ve had secret loves all of the time

In the middle of making love we notice the time
We both get nervous ‘cause it’s way after nine
Even though we hate it, we know it’s time that we go
We gotta be careful so that no one will know

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
Trying so hard to hide the way we feel
‘Cause we both belong to someone elseBut we can’t let go
‘Cause what we feel is, oh, so real
So real, so real, so real, so real

2006-05-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

hmm kinda bored now. studying for my bio test next week... just stating recent things that ive seen.

1. i met this guy at my sabbaticals (its a course in which we choose to go, and there would be no lessons that week! good right.) anyway, i met this really funny guy. hes like one "mommy's boy", and i think he needs to see a psyychiatrist. we were watching terminator III movie and a movie from Animatrix, the second renaissance. he covered his eyes when the robots were like squished by this bulldozer, and then later during the terminator III, there was this rather exciting part where there was a gunfight. and when a grenade blew up, he hid behind his friend's chair. like so complete wtf. then later there was a blast, then because he was squatting down, he fell down. haha. seriously, needs to see a psychiatrist.

2. i have no training for wed and fri this week. thats like so cool. reason was due to sec 4s just back from camp and sec 3s out to god-knows-where.

3. went to sakae sushi at west mall and found the queue rather short, with a line which stretched only to the escalator. pretty short huhs. so no choice went to eat at balithai, and i think the food not bad bah.. ex though. luckily i don't foot the bill. my aunt does XD (but who cares, shes so rich.)

4. went to update my passport today and found the ICA looking rather empty. "empty"* waited for 2 hours ++ just to extend my passport.. o_o.

seriously nothing much to blog about huhs. oh yes, concerning pocheng's bloggy post, the christians are kinda irritating, when they come to promoting the religion. not that i think all christians suck, just that i feel they shouldn't promote so super aggressively. kinda pisses many people off ya know. for example one day before easter day, i was walking to je mrt.. then this christian apporach me and say:

"can i spare a few minutes of your time?"

i didnt want to offend him, so i say i only have a few minutes, because i needa go to tuition (what a ridiculous excuse)

then he started blabbering"did you know easter day is coming? oh and by the way i was once a buddhist, and i asked myself why should i believe in god. god is like so wonderful, blablabla." (didnt listen much, becuase i was thinking he should become the speaker for SMRT announcement for the "call 999" for tamil, and i translate into english (rather poorly): "wumbede, wumbede, wumbede" which means 999, and kinda ouns like wonderful. well, so much for your wonderful religion, thanks. i know your history is rich, but if people wanna embrace the religion, they'd go to you. you don't have to promote the religion. are you trying to show you lack members?

and also something im unhappy about it is that they say doing good deeds is no use unless you are a christian. who are you to justify that? are you trying to proclaim to everyone that doing good deeds are useless? is that so? of course, i know religion is not proven wrong, but neither is it proven right that good deeds are useless if you aren't a christian because you need a cross to cross the divide between god and man. so don't bother me next time. ty.

2006-05-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

hmm... creative sues apple over ipod interface. what's the reason i can't say. but it's a fact that ipod is indeed more popular with consumers. but sueing them doesn't make creative more popular anyway. the problem lies with the consumers. some may think that ipod is a copycat, sort of a modification of creative? but there's surely something ipod has that zen doesn't. in terms of the price, zen is lower and if you compare the functions, zen is better too. but i heard that ipod can last longer. personally, i think that the main reason is that the teenagers nowadays are too materialistic, so of course they would rather get an ipod right? but one good thing about ipod is that. it's really small. that i can understand why it is called ipod mini. haha. if you say zen micro? as in. i emphasize on the word 'micro'? it's not micro at all. the size isn't that micro and it's pretty heavy too. since consumers prefer apple, than the truth is like. rather obvious right? so i guess they have no rights to sue apple?

2006-05-20T05:24:00.000-07:00

Watched da vinci code yesterday, managed to sneak in though it was NC16. (: overall, it was okay. but the book was much better. wonder why it was NC16. mature content but, um? like what? sure, it did include someone naked BUT they didn't show what was not supposed to. perhaps it's because of christianity? that they are afraid young believers would change their opinion of jesus or whatever? by the way, don't you agree that leonardo da vinci's mona lisa and the last supper are amazing? like so many secrets hidden inside!

Speaking of christians, i just can't stand some of them. *please take note that i do not despise them, so if you are very devoted to jesus, don't be offended or you can avoid reading this.

Yes. i understand that different people have different beliefs and religions. however, some religions just tend to... well... promote their religion? and most of them are christians. interestingly, there are three types of christians. i just find those who believe people who do not accept Christ as their personal savior are doomed to hell extremely ridiculous! for what dammit reasons should i be doomed to hell if i don't believe in Christ? it's my own personal belief what.

Whenever on a public holiday or weekend you can always see Christians forcing people to listen to what they have to say about their religion like jesus and bridge and whatever. it's seriously a waste of time to people who doesn't believe in their religion. what they will do is just nod their head continuously without listening to anything and then take the booklet and dump it in the rubbish bin nearby. like what i did.

imagine one day while you are happily strolling down orchard road, someone comes up to you and say "excuse me, can you please spare me a few minutes? just a few minutes will do!". and since you indeed have some time to spare, you agree. next, this person starts blabbering about his/her religion and you, being someone who strongly believes in your own stand, starts saying "sorry, i don't believe in all this stuff and i never ever will" then you start to walk away and suddenly this person says "hey! believe me! those who doesn't believe in Christ will go to hell!!!". i expect you would react by spinning around and glare at the person furiously.

but i think that giving out fliers are sort of okay. people can decide whether to read or not and then whether to believe or not. if they don't like it, they can dump the fliers into the dustbin, if they like it, then probably they would want to believe.

2006-05-15T07:38:00.000-07:00

There was a time some time ago
When every sunrise meant a sunny day, oh a sunny day
But now when the morning light shines in
It only disturbs the dreamland where I lay, oh where I lay
I used to thank the lord when I’d wake
For life and love and the golden sky above me
But now I pray the stars will go on shinin’, you see in my dreams you love me
Daybreak is a joyful time
Just listen to the songbird harmonies, oh the harmonies
But I wish the dawn would never comeI wish there was silence in the trees, oh the trees
If only I could stay asleep, at least I could pretend you’re thinkin’ of me
’cause nighttime is the one time I am happy, you see in my dreams

We climb and climb and at the top we fly
Let the world go on below us, we are lost in time
And I don’t know really what it means
All I know is that you love me, in my dreams
(solo)I keep hopin’ one day I’ll awaken, and somehow she’ll be lying by my side
And as I wonder if the dawn is really breakin’
She touches me and suddenly I’m alive

We climb and climb and at the top we fly
Let the world go on below us, we are lost in time
And I don’t know really what it means
All I know is that you love me, in my dreams
(solo)I keep hopin’ one day I’ll awaken, and somehow she’ll be lying by my side
And as I wonder if the dawn is really breakin’
She touches me and suddenly I’m alive

We climb and climb and at the top we fly
Let the world go on below us, we are lost in time
And I don’t know really what it means
All I know is that you love me, in my dreams
(solo)I keep hopin’ one day I’ll awaken, and somehow she’ll be lying by my side
And as I wonder if the dawn is really breakin’
She touches me and suddenly I’m alive

Oh, In My Dreams..

2006-05-11T09:23:00.000-07:00

i wonder...

if things were to stay the same,

how would it be like now?

if we were to find the feelings back,

would we still feel the same?

most probably not.

am i happy now?

i can't say i am.

what do i really want?

i don't know.

i just feel empty...

when was the last time i felt really happy?

what actually is happiness?

does it really exist?

or just in fairytales...?

you know that silence is loud,
when all you hear is your heart...

when something is gone, it is gone. think about what is precious to you and cherish it well. and just do remember that even if you find it, it will never be the same again...

2006-05-11T05:15:00.000-07:00

This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know

So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me never let me go

2006-05-06T08:02:00.000-07:00

AHEMS. ed, you saying i v luo suo izzit? tomorrow you will get it from me. lol. jkjk. haha... poor thing la, cca like that. but then on the other hand your free of tests. but for me, more to come. sigh...

today... let me think... what did i do? i watched tv. o_O omg... why am i watching tv??? i still have alot of things to do. so far i only completed my chinese compo and 1 & 1/4 of my math worksheet out of 3. that means i still left 1 & 3/4 of my math and one science assignment. then what am i doing here still? why am i on the computer?! i'm blogging. ya... blogging. instead of completing my homework. and that means burning midnight oil. yay! -.- don't ask me why i can't do it tomorrow, 'cause i'm going to have to study for my math test, my english SA1 and my promo test. and it's raining now and i didn't even know. wheee... nice nice sleep tonight. i love rainy days, especially at night.

watching the election now. part of the results are out, and people are drinking and cheering really loud over PAP's... um... failure? anyway, i don't support PAP, so there! my reasons you ask? not going to say it here, least i receive a lawyer's letter tomorrow! hahaha! anyway, i'm happy tonight. 'cause it's raining. will be having a great time doing my homework.

2006-05-05T22:02:00.000-07:00

whee~ shall be blogging now. I KNOW I KNOW i don't blog as much as pocheng. lol.

i got back my bio CLASS test results yesterday. got 29/35. thats lousy. but who cares about this test. i still have a bio MODULE test, which affects my marks more. and dammit -- yesterday was my lit test. stupid bitchy teacher.. she gave us only like 30 minutes to complete a 40 minutes paper. everyone was like. "wtf, my question (b) write only one page! f**ker." and is like she was absent from tuesday to thursday. apparently her son had some very high fever and then got water in the brain or smth. sadly that did not happen on her. rumours were spreading it was only 38.1 degrees, budden her POOR methods of curing the fever led to a very very high fever. how i wish that the sickness were on her and not her son.

training was very tough yesterday. ncos were pretty mad too. mad as in crazy. there were water puddles in the carpark (the place where we do our drills). then we march to beside a water puddle. then we were forced to do situps! nice one. we were in our uniform lah. -_-""
but should get used to their wonderful ways.. then is like 1 hr 15 minutes drill, no water break, 35 minutes is pumping/pt. wtf.. then finally have one pitiful 3 min water break which includes changing out of our uniform. ridiculous. might as well don't have waterbreak.. -.-"

later we went for the namly ave run. (around 3km), but then it has like ups and downs. diff to run. and also, the part we had to run up the hill, we had to go up and down TWICE, thanks to the nco again. he's a sadist..

later on was slacking. finally.. we went to play bball for a ridiculous 15 minutes. how fun..

well reached home at around 9. not sure whats the time, never noticed. so thats about all i guess..

2006-05-01T05:34:00.000-07:00

WOOTS. got gao xiao xing dong. still thought they won't show it 'cause of the report on election. anyway, i promised liling to talk about mrs tan!!

mrs tan, an evil, horrible, terrible, cunning, ugly, fat, fake, unreasonable, unhygienic ridiculous, despo teacher who always like to say "it's not very pleasant you know, it's really not very nice you know? do you understand what i mean? you get what i mean?". wadeva. NO. i do not understand what she means. i just understand she's really mad in that sense whenever she repeats her favourite line. why can't she just be more creative and change to some other stuff like. "i know i'm very irritating and naggy and i sucks so much that nobody likes me. i'm indeed a despo who knows nothing at all except cooking. but seriously my cooking's terrible!". by the way, her cooking is indeed terrible. so awful. i just feel like puking whenever i taste her cooking. bleargh!

why do i say she's evil? because she has the hair of someone whose house exploded in the middle of the night and the way she applies her eye shadow makes her look like a bai gu jing. actually that's not the reason. that's because she always talk bad about someone behind their back and after she scolds someone, she pretends to be nice to the person. so fake. the first time she scolded me was because my hair was messy la. such a minor problem scold until like that. stupid. then she was like "look at yourself in the mirror, look at your hair, it's only half tied! what's your cca? what would they think? they would think i didn't teach you properly. do you know why i am upset?". -.- that time i was having a high fever la, then she scold and scold and scold. then few days later when i came back to school she pretend pretend... "are you feeling okay? are you alright now? did you take your medicine?". yaya.. so hao xin man. i appreciated it sooooo much. *roll my eyes*

was wondering how she would react if i answered her in this way.
mrs tan: look at yourself in the mirror, look at your hair, it's only half tied!
me: why? i think i look very nice. nothing's wrong with me. my hair is the latest fashion.
mrs tan: WHAT?! you dare argue with me! what's wrong with you girl?! *stare at me with sweat dripping and dripping and dripping.* what's your cca? what would they think? they would think i didn't teach you properly!
me: i think i'm very normal, if you don't think so, you may call someone to take me away to the woodbridge hospital. by the way, nobody is so free to notice my hair and comment on it as what you are doing now. if anyone's hair is neat during cca, my cca that is, you are crazy. why would you want people to think that you taught me properly? you want a promotion issit? and do you need a tissue? if anyone sees you like this they will think it's raining outside. *starts to hum the tune it's raining man"
mrs tan: it's not very pleasant to say this huh! it's not very nice you know! you understand what i mean??? do you know why i'm upset?
me: you are upset because you have nothing better to do and you are a lunatic woman.
and the next thing that will happen is that mrs tan would get a heart attack. muahahaha!

and then since then every lesson she will scold me, until recently. she's very bo liao too, my friend just crossed the table a little then she scolded her "do you know that he needs oil? huh? why did you overtake him?" and blablabla.. like that also need to scold. siao. then she told a boy to cut his nails in front of everyone with a pair of scissors, and even told him to show his fingernails to everyone. and it wasn't even long can? then someone forgets to bring her apron and tupperware, then she said "since you didn't bring everything, you can go down to buy a tupperware for everyone". then the girl wanted someone to accompany her but stupid tan said "no. you are to go alone. you caused all the trouble so now you are going to solve the problem by yourself. i don't care what you are going to do but you have to solve it on your own!". and then she walked off. so bad! and then she scold and scold and scold everyone for no obvious reasons. mad.

she's so unhygenic because her sweat drips into the butter while she is stirring it. yucks. then she always say we must be healthy, don't put too much oil. and in the end i saw her adding a large teaspoon of oil in. oh my... if she really eats healthy would she be so fat now? i don't get it why she likes to comment on my hair. she tells me my hair is messy then she walks away. i was like. waaa.. so good, never scold me. so hao xin? then next thing was that my form teacher came to tell me my hair is messy when it wasn't. must be her then. don't think i don't know what she's doing behind my back. wadeva. she's just so disgusting and i puke everytime i see her. crazy madwoman. my greatest wish is that she will fly away to bangladesh and never come back.

2006-04-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

i decided to erase this entire 3hr entry 'cause it might be quite offending to some people.

you might like to ask me for it in case you feel like reading it.

pretty funny. yeah. (:

2006-04-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

posting now. shall talk about YESTERDAY first. yesterday was my maths test, firstly. quite sure i'll fail. (im a very very careless person.) i think i minus at least 9 marks out of 40. oh wells. can't change that fact eh..

training was tough. but still reasonable. since my "sadistic" nco wasn't there. we did: a lot of pumpings, and a visit to the weights room. however, there was recre! woots. we played soccer at the VOLLEYBALL court, and were chased out like 30 minutes later. their reason for being so lag: the coach is cock-eye? maybe smaller than that. lol. anyway, we were chased out, then afterwards still forced to tie back their net, because their coach thought it was us who did so. (how unreasonable right?) but at least they were kind to say that they also feel its unreasonable, but it was the coach who forced us to do so.

then later we still went to the field to play. but sadly, started to rain, and its rules we cannot play in the rain, so in like 15 minutes we sent back le. ): but thats good actually. dismiss earlier-than-usual..

and today shall be me slack day. woke up at 1pm, then pia hw until like.. now? not really. actually slack since 4pm onwards. lol. not much things to say. and i must say, it is actually TOTALLY pocheng's idea, and i just agreed to it. hahahaha

2006-04-28T05:50:00.000-07:00

tired tired tiredddddddd! finally it's the end of the week. this 3 days break will really do me good. feel as if i haven't slept for a long long time. today's cca was... interesting and not interesting in some way or another. firstly because we couldn't fall in quick enough, we were made to run to the parade square and back again. so absurd can? i still prefer sir denya. he's so nice. tt's the way to treat us wad. he's like a million trillion times better than the ncos. but the ncos weren't nice in the first place. hahaha!

then there were some games. supposedly to be our recreation? wasn't nice at all. 14 people standing on 8 chairs and in that way arrange ourselves from the shortest to the tallest. i nearly fell off the chair twice la. then i was like so afraid i would get my group disqualified so i started grabbing the shirts of the people on the left and right sides of me. -.- managed to save myself. then my leg got stuck in between the chairs and they keep pulling me to the other side. and once again i pulled someone's else shirt again. lol. then we started doing sit ups on the parade square. the ground was so damn wet and as a result my hair was ruined. sad. after that there was this really stupid game where everyone held in pumping position and we crawled through them. on the grass somemore la! it was like so pricky and full of insects lo. then after that everyone was practically washing their arms in the canteen. with soap somemore. when i got home the first thing i did was to bathe and i took like half an hour.

the only thing i can conclude is that sir alex is a sicko. i hope sir denya takes us next week.

2006-04-27T04:30:00.000-07:00

haha. this will be my first post! okie. where's li ling?? oh.. she ran off. -.- btw, it's not totally my idea. u agreed to it anyway. si lemon. hahaha! just want to create this blog to vent my anger sometimes. seems like i have plenty of stress once i begin my secondary school life. sigh... seems to have a fixed routine. a stupid one though. everyday i wake up and then go back to sleep and when i wake up it's already like around 6am so i wash up and blablabla... ok. enough of the crap. nobody would want to know my boring daily routine anyway. the only thing that change everyday is the television programn i watch. seems that the stupid pig-like creature makes a big change in the programn. hahaha!

today's presentation was like such a disaster can? got so tensed up initially. then when we were the next group to present... finally... after the long long long x infinity wait... "you all can go for a break. i need a break too." -.- i was like waddahell la. my hands were so damn cold. partly because of the aircon and then i was so nervous somemore though i was happily eating chocolate behind the teacher's back and smsing under the table before that.

havta complete my homework now. and my cid report blablablaa. i won't get to sleep tonight.
anyway, jiayou for ur tests ed! hahahaaaa. poor thing.

2006-04-27T03:51:00.000-07:00

this shall be my first post! lol. anyway, just to blog about some stuff huhs. met zhu jingjing at nanhua! omg. was there for some chinese talk. then so suay meet her? omgomgomg.

today is boring. tmr i have two test. i must ganbatte! (as guen yik says, it means jiayou). i shan't bore you all out with my tests. wonder what i should talk about.

oh yes. this blog is pocheng's idea! i just decided to accept her invitation since i know i can't maintain a blog on my own. not enough time. and then, please dont xiang wai! thanks.

tomorrow might have more interesting things to write. (though i might blog on sat instead..)